March 19, 2010

this balancing act

Lunch break= blog time!

So my beloved mac book pro is sick. I had to take it to a mac specialist here in Arkansas. I really hope that they can fix it, because not all of my art and photos are backed up. I am beyond sad........

I find that without my laptop, I feel even more isolated than usual. I have shared on here about how I really have not found a place where I belong in Arkansas. Furthermore, it has been so long since I have had to try to build new relationships, I do not know where to start. I have contemplated the possibility of making "blogging" friends, but how do I do that without coming across as needy? I read the blogs of many amazing and talented people. How do people distinguish between friendship and, well.... almost being a creepy online stalker? Am I making any sense? Most likely not.

Forgive my ramblings. I finally have access to a computer and am just putting it all out there.

Sometimes, I realize I am so inward. I like to work. I like to draw and keep creating. I feel like if I work at it hard enough, people will like my stuff and buy it. Then I can really call myself an artist. 


it is hard to stay motivated.

Then, there is the whole working full time outside of the home while being a mommy and a wife. I do not want to be the person who puts their family on the back burner. I read this article that was mentioned on OhDeedOh recently about blogging mommas called "Honey, Don’t Bother Mommy. I’m Too Busy Building My Brand.". God help me if I become this person.

Sorry for all of the garble. The last thing my 50 followers want to read about is my silly emotions! (Thats right, I officially have 50 blogger followers).

In summary, I need to:
1. Get a life
2. Make new friends
3. Have my mac book pro returned to me ASAP so that I can get back to business
4. Focus on my family

Thanks for reading. 

Tomorrow will be a much happier post, I guarantee it!